She is cute.

@1 day ago

Consider the odds, Consider the obvious. The martyr is meaningless...

From where I sit, I can see the whole world. There is nothing in the world I can’t accomplish. I can take it by the reins and change the lives of everyone around me. I can make people smile and help them see the beauty in the hell around them. I can tell everyone that I love them and that God has given us life to do all these things together.

I just need to get out of bed.

@1 week ago

I could do that...

I play music because it makes me feel good. I play music because it makes the people around me feel good. I play music, because I am at my happiest when I am around music. I love being with my friends, but if there is a Relient K song playing softly in the background, that makes the patio time that more special. I love music because it’s like all art. I can write something that is beautiful and perfect to me but horrible and intolerable to another. I love music because it can be a subtle way to get deep and make mindless people open themselves up to different thoughts. I love music because it can change your day and bring a smile to a miserable person. I love music because when all my friends leave me, it’s still there. I love music because it has always been around and will always be around. I love music, because I am good at it. I love music because it’s hard to get rich doing it. It’s a very pure occupation and teaches humility to the most uptight of people.

I love music because that is when I feel closest to God and when I’m close to God I can do anything.

…And that’s why I play music. So I can do anything through God.

But if there wasn’t music, I’d find something else.

@3 weeks ago
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This song really says everything that’s on my mind right now.

I know the intention of the song is romantic, but this song speaks to me in such a broader sense. I have been going through a lot mentally, emotionally, and I’ve been quite drained. I was afraid of so much last week. I was the weakest I have ever been. Then one night I talked to God and I had this revelation so amazing, I still am feeling it almost a week later.

My friends will always fail me. My family will do the same. I can’t rely on financial security to pull me through and I certainly can’t trust the government or any other socially constructed group to solve my problems.

There are two things that have never failed me and they will never leave me.

God and music.

This song really lets me sing and feel all the pain inside of me just go away. It let’s me say to my failed relationships that I love you, but if you don’t want me I’m fine. I don’t need friends and I don’t need family as long as God is that constant in my life.

However, I am very blessed to have friends that love me and value my talents and personality. I am very blessed to have a family that loves me no matter how wrong they think the path I’m walking is. I am blessed to be filled with so much passion to play music and make  a difference.

I’ve been sleeping just fine now.

@4 weeks ago and 21 plays
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@1 month ago and 32 plays
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This is my second favorite song of all time. It makes me happy whenever I hear it.

@5 days ago and 6 plays
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This is the new hold on song. It’s the macbook demo with an excessive amount of reverb. I’m sorry.

@3 weeks ago and 18 plays
I’m having a tough time dwelling on the bright side of humanity. I know it’s not good for my brain to be so engulfed with all this anger, but I looked in the paper today and saw this. These girls are excited because the levy for their school district passed. That is awesome and definitely a praise to God. But at the same time, I was raged with anger. How in the hell could we let them go three years without the proper funding to run their schools in the first place. How can we let the education of our children be less important than anything else on some legislation agenda. It disgusts me. We’re not doing things the right way.
We need to grow up. We need to be something better.

I’m having a tough time dwelling on the bright side of humanity. I know it’s not good for my brain to be so engulfed with all this anger, but I looked in the paper today and saw this. These girls are excited because the levy for their school district passed. That is awesome and definitely a praise to God. But at the same time, I was raged with anger. How in the hell could we let them go three years without the proper funding to run their schools in the first place. How can we let the education of our children be less important than anything else on some legislation agenda. It disgusts me. We’re not doing things the right way.

We need to grow up. We need to be something better.

@3 weeks ago

This was all my fault...

I had four best friends over the summer.
I only have one of them left.

Is it me?

@1 month ago

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@1 month ago